.: Oxymoronic :.

Today I had my first meeting with my new boss. It was too
early in the morning and it was done on such short notice that I wasn’t able to
prepare enough. Fortunately, my Action Plan for October was already in place and
ready to be flashed around. The meeting lasted for a grueling hour or so. But
for some strange reason, I felt relieved and as soon as I was done with the
session, I went around the floor to do my walkabout with a lifted spirit. I
wasn’t able to finish what I’m gonna do today, but I feel that I have
accomplished a lot.

Well, life in the office has been pretty much a
smoother ride now. Pressures are slowly sliding off my back. When it comes to
handling my team, I think I have everything under control this time. The
resources that I need are there already - extra tentacles for me, bwahahaha! I
have a vision: in 2-3 months I will be recognized as one of the most admired
Team Leads by agents. I don’t wish to become the most proficient or the most
adept with processes but I want to be the most inlfluential. It’s manifestation
- of course, better stats. So, Team Minotaur, I know you’re reading this. Make
your Banker proud, and of course I won’t fail you as well. We’ve got a long way
to go.

It seems like my corporate life is on a flourishing outlook.
Let’s take a look on some other aspects of my life. I’d like to take a page off
Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary:

Main Entry: drought
Pronunciation: ‘draut
Variant(s): also drouth /’drauth/

Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English drugath, from drugian to dry up; akin to Old English dryge dry

1 : a period of dryness especially when prolonged; specifically : one that causes extensive damage to crops or prevents their successful growth

2 : a prolonged or chronic shortage or lack of something expected or desired  

It’s not anymore a mystery. The rest of my life is
rather…barren. Weekends are not as exciting as they were. Nothing seems to
fall into place when I try to go out. All my friends have different schedules
now. All of us. No amount of planning can ever put us all together. My restdays
are crap. Who will go out with you on a Monday?! So there. Slowly, I am becoming
a social handicap.

It only follows that my dating life is (as of last
update) STILL zero. I’m done with K. I received no reciprocation - that’s
perfectly fine with me. At least I tried, and for a little while I enjoyed a
little flirting on the side. But seriously, I am so ready to be in love again
(as mushy as it may sound right now). I think I already found that ‘one’, but
fate has once again pulled another trick from her sleeve. How can it happen when
two people like each other but they just can’t be? Basically, I don’t have too
much questions to throw. I know I like B and soon enough, I will get
answers.

Now I don’t know where to pick myself up. I have my loyalties
to one person but I’m not committed. Do I date someone else and wait for the
answers to come? It’s completely a big dilemma. Maybe I’ll just enjoy myself. I
know B would understand that, hopefully. Let me be.

You ask me how’s sex? Please refer back to the dictionary entry.