My normal route to work involved a
stop and drop to Gilmore Station of LRT2. My office is situated in the
most barren of surroundings when it comes to getting fastfood. As
always, pantry food is almost synonymous to repetitive and crap. Now, I
don’t eat cooked lunch at work and would have to rely on ready-to-eat
snack packs. But some of the people in the office have depended on one
special stand just near the office building to answer the call of their
tummies -
Buena Bonita Burgers. These are reminiscent of the Scott
Burgers that you can buy one and get one free. Surprisingly, this
version is waaaay too cheap for
Php10 a sandwich. It makes you wonder
how much cow meat has really been put into it. It barely even smells
beef. They say it’s good, but I’ve yet to try it. Hello, I’m skeptical,
but for the sake of trying, I’ll devour one and judge from there. Who
would have thought, in the wake of hunger and modern ways to create
faster and cheaper full meal alternatives, Pinoys have yet again
"innovated" to create something that satisfies the palate but doesn’t
tear a hole in a one’s pocket…no matter what it’s really made of.
***
I definitely don’t know how to handle stress. I thought joking around
the office and laughing everything out loud, together with the constant
grocery shopping would help combat the tension I get from my
perpetually challenging work. I’ve got no room for mediocrity that
everytime I screw up I get a wild twitch in my eye, which I voluntarily
fight. But against my knowledge I still react to stress when I sleep.
My Dad has been noticing that when I get to deep slumber, I restlessly
grind my teeth against each other, so hard that it makes a noise. My
dentist uncle has validated that it is indeed my body’s psychosomatic
reaction to pressure - a case of Bruxism. I might end up losing my
teeth one by one so I better get those mouth guards to prevent this
from happening; and of course, find more effective ways to relieve
stress. No wonder my jaws hurt in the morning!!
***
Speaking of stress and negative energy around the office I have again
have to get hold of myself before I fume in anger. My schedule is completely messed up. I only have one rest day for this week
which essentially, is not even close to a full day. Once again, my
hopes were crushed to get a weekend off work. Most of my teammates will
get to enjoy this, so I’m really confused and irritated by this. But
looking at the brightside, I got a pretty decent morning schedule. I
may get to enjoy malling after my shift. Though, maybe tomorrow I’ll
try to raise my issue cos it’s still unclear to me.
***
Here I am again with the never-ending cryptic update. It seems like the
shine and luster from yesterday’s flirtation is slowly losing its glow.
And yes, until now, it is STILL in the flirtation stage. I’m not really
sure if it’s really that way or eventually gonna go into somewhere
else. My heart says stay but my mind says go. I think I’m exerting
quite an effort to reach out, but every time I find a reason to go
forward, there are two reasons to halt and step back. Am I the only one
who thinks about these barricades? Obviously, I’m not looking for signs
to interpret anymore, I need the real thing. Whatever message I’m
trying to get across has already been received by the other party. It’s
probably time for you to let me know what you need me to do. I will be
waiting for your response…which ever manner you want to.
***
There should be a fifth ‘B’ in this entry but historically speaking, I
should not utter a word about it. I’m notorious for jinxing my own
excitement. So, I have to keep it to myself first. *wink*
